Walking on Eggshells

by Diana
(Tennessee )

Hello, I’ve been married for 29 years. We have 2 sons. Our problem is my husband’s anger issues. The least little thing will set him off and he goes on a rage.

He is prone to yelling, cussing and embarrassing me in public. I have talked to him about his anger several times. I even got him to go to the doctor and get on some anti depression meds after he had a total meltdown outside trying to work on his car. He was in a fit for hours screaming, cussing and throwing stuff. I know the neighbors heard him.

The meds worked. He stayed on them for almost a year then said “I’m not going to take it anymore. I don’t like the way I feel on them.” So here we are again back to the fit throwing.

I’m so tired of it. I’m really thinking about leaving. This is not how a marriage should be. I use to be a happy go lucky person but he has changed me. I stay depressed. Not knowing what kind of mood he is going to be in when he walks in the door every day is tiring.

My father died last year and my nerves just can’t take much more. I dream what it would be like to be with someone who is easy going. Someone I could talk to and not get ignored completely or set him off.

He has no compassion. I feel all his anger outbursts over the years have killed my love for him. I don’t enjoy going anywhere with him because I’m just waiting for something to happen and he goes off. It is so embarrassing to go out in public with him.

I can’t relax. He keeps my anxiety level sky high. Anybody else been through this?