Fits of Rage And Alcoholism

by Lauren
(Vancouver)

I moved away from my family almost two years ago, and have recently began to experience fits of anger and extremely uncomfortable anger. I blow up over the littlest things.

For example, if my dogs pull me in opposite directions as I’m walking them, I want to scream at the top of my lungs. Or if hangers in the coat closet get stuck together I just want to throw them.

I ended up getting so angry the other day that I punched my steering wheel so hard that I busted my knuckles.

My mom and dad have also been having financial problems and have not called me or answered my phone calls for almost a month and a half, which is not like them. I am extremely worried for them as they too have bad alcohol problems.

I find myself so upset about it on a daily basis that I feel as if they do not care about me. My husband doesn't know what to do and has been distancing himself as well I feel from me because I am so hard to deal with.

I am not sure if this is caused by my own problem with alcoholism or if it is something more that may have been suppressed. I really would like to be more happy and easy going and not wound up so tight all the time.

I used to be so happy and now this looming cloud seems to be over my head more often than not.

Thanks for letting me rant.