Consumed By Hate Grief And Revenge

by Carrie
(Ireland)

I lost my beautiful brother to alcoholism 3 years ago. I miss him every day. I am consumed by thoughts of hate, revenge and such anger at the girl he was last in a relationship with.

She drove him to a jewelers to get engaged. He was too drunk to drive and I believe he wouldn’t have drove even if he could. He did not want this girl but she was a leech, an enabler, and has been so nasty to me since his passing.

Friends have said she would be jealous of my brother’s and my close relationship. She knew he was always drunk with her and she never knew the real person. She once said that.

She was hiding in the cemetery one dark night and came out and verbally abused me, right at my brother’s grave.

I cannot let it go. I want revenge. I can think about nothing else. I have a wonderful husband and children, and I feel I am not fully present for them as my thoughts are of this nasty person all the time.

I have done counselling for a year and half. I find it difficult mainly because this person is still involved with my other brother and sister…they are friends! I am waiting for karma...please help!